A meaningful excerpt from Houghton’s Sketches from Church History:
It was so with John Wesley. In 1734 he decided that he was called of God to engage in missionary work in the newly-founded American colony of Georgia. But his stay there was comparatively short. In one way or another, but chiefly through the influence of Moravian Christians met on board ship, he was forced to the alarming conclusion that he himself was not truly converted to God. He, a university fellow and tutor, he, the product of a Christian home, was as yet ignorant of saving truth and destitute of conversion experience. ‘I left my native country’, he wrote early in 1738 ‘to teach the Georgia Indians the nature of Christianity. But what have I learnt myself in the meantime? What I the least of all suspected, that I who went to America to convert others wwas never converted to God myself’. [emphasis is from the book author]
Grace is not fully known when it is not seen for what it is. Even in the life of a Methodist and semi-Pelagian, John Wesley saw the inconsistencies of his life and how it was all works and by the ‘will’ of his own man. But in the end, it was ‘all of God, and none of me’.
Too many in our ‘Christian’ circles and networks, are the people who are satisfied with their conversion by ‘association’ and by ‘works’.
What they truly need is a surprised conversion. May God grant to them according to His Sovereign and Abundant Grace and Mercy, such to them!